Monday, April 23, 2012

Day 315 - 5 Miles to Empty



I get the most random songs stuck in my head at times.  All it takes is for someone to say a word, and a song will come to mind, and it can get stuck there for hours.   This is one such song that got here this morning when my mother said something about, "so much time."  And while I don't blog about every song that gets stuck in my head, this was one that takes me back a bit, so I figured why not...
"O, baby, can we sit down and talk for a minute?  You know that we've got a few things we need to work out, o yeah.  You can spare me all your sorry details - had enough of all your lies and my silent cries."  She has come to a point in her relationship that she feels the need to confront her love and discuss what's happening.  She feels he's been lying to her, and she is tired of it, because she is tired of crying and hiding her feelings/pain (hence the silent cries).
"Hurry, hurry, quick, quick - I need a man who's gonna do me right.  Hurry, hurry, quick, quick - somebody who will surely satisfy.  When I think of your love, it only makes me stop and wonder truly why, oh why, why would you make me cry, oh baby?"  She is at the point where she seems to have reached the end of her road (you know what song is about to be stuck in my head now...) and she is ready to find someone who will love her, be honest, and provide for her needs.  Thinking about him only causes her to wonder why he would treat her the way he has - in such a way that it makes her cry.
"5 miles to empty.  My heart is running low, whoa. I need a good man to fill me up.  I need a good man to give me love, yeah."  She is self-aware enough to know that she is close to the breaking point.  She recognizes her need for love, and she is asking for it.  It's unclear whether she will be leaving her current situation to get it or if she is asking her current partner to step up and give her what she needs, but one thing is clear - she needs to be loved. 
"We spend so much time, we're always fighting desperately trying for love we know won't last much longer, no, no, baby.  Such a waste of time when we're praying though, some are saying that we won't last much longer than a day, no."  It is sometimes true that we can fight and push for things that were not meant to last.  How do you know when something is over?  I wish there was an easy answer to that question or a formula, but the truth is that it's different for each situation.  What I will say is to give your all until you come to a point where you recognize that it is not to continue, and then you let go.  Even if things end, you will be to say that you gave it your all.  And you never know, the tough time may just be a season in the relationship, and you don't want to give up on your destiny because there was a moment of trial.  Patience can serve you well (and that may have to be a blog entry in itself).  At the same time, don't just hold on to something because you're scared there's nothing else.  Take time to feel from your gut whether it's time to go - your instincts will rarely steer you wrong if you are still enough to feel them.



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