This song has been in my head and in my heart and on repeat for quite a while. I guess it's about time that I talk about it.
"I know you’ve been hurt by someone else - I can tell by the way you carry yourself. If you let me, here’s what I’ll do - I’ll take care of you. I’ve loved and I’ve lost." I love the chorus... And that's probably because I can relate as it seems that many of the people in my life, especially those who I've loved, have been in this particular place. And being the caregiver that I am, it fits quite well into my function in relationships. The singer is saying that she sees the hurt and the pain of the past relationships by the way her friend acts, but it is her desire to love and care and even help bring healing. She too has loved and lost, so she can relate to the pain. She feels that together, they can work things out, and if her friend would open up, she can provide the love that is needed/wanted deep in his heart.
"I’ve asked about you and they told me things, but my mind didn’t change. I still feel the same. What's a life with no fun? Please don’t be so ashamed - I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours, we both know. We know, they don’t get you like I will. My only wish is I die real, cuz that truth hurts, and those lies heal. And you can’t sleep thinking that he lies still, so you cry still, tears all in the pillow case. Big girls all get a little taste. Pushing me away so I give her space - dealing with a heart that I didn’t break. I’ll be there for you, I will care for you, I keep thinking you just don’t know. Trying to run from that, say you’re done with that, on your face girl, it just don’t show. When you’re ready, just say you’re ready, when all the baggage just ain’t as heavy. And the party's over, just don’t forget me. We’ll change the pace and we'll just go slow. You won’t ever have to worry. You won’t ever have to hide. You've seen all my mistakes, so look me in my eyes." So the artist sees someone of interest, and he's heard the stories about the things she's done, but he's not concerned. He understands that everyone has a past, and sometimes things that happen in our lives cause us to do things that we wouldn't under better circumstances. So he's not judging her based on that. He's saying that it's ok to enjoy - he has too. As for their budding relationship, he knows that he can understand her in ways that others can't. And he desires to be honest, even when it's hard, because he knows that she's dealt with having her heart hurt by lies. As a result, she pushes him away because of what another man has done to her. He has to deal with a heart that is unresolved in its issues, in essence getting the punishment and dealing with the trust issues and baggage from someone else's crime. And even though she says she wants nothing to do with love, her eyes suggest otherwise. He is being patient enough to say that he will be there when the party is over and when she is ready to do what her heart wants to. He'll go slow and provide a safe space for her to be herself and receive love again. He knows her and she knows him, so they can be safe in that space together, sharing love when she is ready.
"It’s my birthday - I'll get high if I want to. Can’t deny that I want you, but I'll lie if I have to, cuz you don’t say you love me to your friends when they ask you even though we both know that you do. One time, been in love one time. You and all your girls in the club one time - all so convinced that you’re following your heart, cuz your mind don’t control what it does sometimes. We all have our nights though, don’t be so ashamed. I’ve had mine, you’ve had yours, we both know. We know, you hate being alone - you ain’t the only one. You hate the fact that you bought the dream when they sold you one. You love your friends but somebody shoulda told you somethin’ to save you. Instead they say, 'Don't tell me, I don't care if you hurt. I don't tell you. You don't care, if you're true.'" He too is still in the space of having fun and doing him, so enjoying his birthday is just part of the experience. It may also be part of dealing with her emotional space. He cares about her, and it's clear, but because she seems to be playing games and being less than honest, he will follow her lead in denying the feelings in order to protect himself. He's been in love (and likely she has too), but now they are in the club just trying to have fun, avoiding all that. Yet, the desire for love is still there. But therein lies the conflict - the hatred for the feeling of being alone v. the potential pain of connection (as has been previously experienced and accompanied by broken promises and heartache). And it seems that she can't even find true help with her friends seem to be in the same boat, all living "oblivious" to the deeper pain going on. It seems like they are all trying to live in the space of denial, focusing on the partying and the fun while denying any desire for love in order to avoid the pain...
"but if you let me, here's what I'll do - I'll take care of you..."
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