Friday, April 8, 2011

Day 91 - How it Feels to Fly


"I am riding high. Don't wanna come down - hope my wings don't fail me now. If I can touch the sky, I'd risk the fall just to know how it feels to fly."  The first time I heard this song, I instantly loved the chorus.  I was at a place in life where I felt restless and knew I needed to grow.  So when I heard this song, it was like a push to do more and go higher.  "I'd risk the fall just to know how it feels to fly..."  The feeling of flying is worth the risk of the fall (and the pain associated with said fall).  And as a person who has dealt with both the fear of heights and a paralyzing fear of pain, I knew that anything that motivated me enough to try in the face of 2 strong opponents would have to be a very strong force and influence.  
"Have you ever felt so strong that it made you feel weak? Long days, long nights and you just can't sleep. Have you ever been so sure that it gave you cold feet? Gotcha floating on air, you can feel your heart beat." I was admittedly a bit puzzled by these lines the first time I heard them, as they are intentional contradictions.  How are you so strong that you're weak or so sure that you get nervous/uncertain?  But as I thought about it, I realized that there are times in our lives that we can be so empowered and so strong in what we are doing that it makes us nervous.  Even though we know we are walking in our destiny or headed in the right direction, we may feel that power moving within us and it makes us nervous, because we're not used to feeling that complete and strong.  Most of life tends to be so mediocre and "chill" that in those moments when we are fully alive, such strength scares us.
"Have you ever felt so lost, but didn't know till you were found? Looking everywhere, but you finally see now. In a room full of people, it feels like no one's around. Gotcha head in the clouds and your feet are off the ground."  A lot of times, I think we walk through life in something of a daze.  Of course, we don't necessarily know how much more there is until we get a taste or glimpse of it (have you ever felt so lost but didn't know till you were found).  But I think that somewhere deep inside, we have a sense that there's more to life than what we have, and this is probably the substance of our dreams (awake and asleep), and it can even change our sense of reality.  That's why you can be surrounded by people and feel alone - you are so far into your reality that other people seem to vanish.  Or sometimes the place where we find ourselves internally won't let us connect to those around us, leaving us isolated even in the midst of a crowd.  But I think even those feelings can be used as positive fuel for moving us in the right direction.
"Well, I never knew this feeling ever. I hope it stays and lasts forever."  While it's not something we're used to feeling, it's a high like no other, and it's definitely something we will want to repeat.  Being fully alive, walking in the fullness of who you were created to be, experiencing love in the truest and deepest sense... all these things can give us the feeling of flying, and while there is some risk involved, the payoff is priceless. 
"I am riding high. Don't wanna come down - hope my wings don't fail me now. If I can touch the sky, I'd risk the fall just to know how it feels to fly."  I thank God for not only my relationship with Her that allows me to feel that push and the wind beneath my wings but also for the people in my life who model for me how to do that and who motivate me to trust my own wings and fly....  
I encourage you to reconnect with moments in your life when you felt that you were flying.  What was happening in that moment?  Who was around?  How was that moment connected to your purpose?  How can you make that a more consistent space in your life?  FLY!

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