Day 94 - Firework

While I'm admittedly not a huge fan of Katy Perry, I do absolutely love this song.  And I'm amazed that I haven't blogged about before now, but as I was sitting in the car with one of my friends listening to the song, we talked about how powerful it was, and I realized that it clearly deserved an entry and that today would be the day.  The first time I heard it, I was in my car flipping through the channels on the radio.  A song had just ended, so I was waiting to see what the next song would be.  The DJ said something about a new song by Katy Perry and I thought, I'll pass.  But as I reached down to change the station, he said that the name of the song was "Firework."  I paused, because I'm a fan of fire, fireworks, and all things related, so I figured I'd give the song a listen.
"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?  Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin, like a house of cards - one blow from caving in?  Do you ever feel already buried deep?  Six feet under,  scream, but no one seems to hear a thing?"  I think I was feeling something similar at the time.  Even with some great things going on in my life at the time, I felt like I was still... just blah.  I felt like life was just moving me along.  Actually, I'd felt like that most of my life.  It was not a good feeling, and so I was intrigued as to what she would have to say about my less than grand feelings.

"Do you know that there's still a chance for you?"  Is there really?  Are you sure?  I've never really felt like there was.  I mean, there are glimmers and words of hope, but will things ever really be that much different than what they are now?  And what makes you so sure?
"Cause there's a spark in you."  Do tell.  Having studied religion for most of my collegiate life, I'm aware of the concept of a divine spark being within all of us.  Either way, because of my love for fire, I was intrigued once again and wanted to know more about this spark that could potentially change my life.
"You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine.  Just own the night like the Fourth of July. Cause baby, you're a firework - come on show 'em what you're worth.  Make 'em go 'Oh, oh, oh!' as you shoot across the sky. 
Baby, you're a firework - come on let your colors burst.  Make 'em go 'Oh, oh, oh!'  You're gonna leave 'em going 'oh, oh, oh!'"  Okay, so I have to have confidence and fire.  And apparently I'm a firework - I'm a beautiful, powerful explosion of light and color that people anticipate and enjoy.  The spark in me is lit, but it's up to me to add fuel to the fuel and bring forth that core fire.
"You don't have to feel like a waste of space - you're original, cannot be replaced. If you only knew what the future holds - after a hurricane comes a rainbow.   Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road.  Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow, and when it's time, you'll know."  So I am not an accident, even if the birth control slipped or there was no intentional child-making.  And I'm unique and irreplaceable (sorry, Beyonce).  And life is lining up so that I can move in the direction of my true destiny, even if that means I have to encounter some setbacks and frustrations along the way.  But once I find "that thing," I will know, and as I live/walk in it, it will be clear to me and to the world that I'm where I'm supposed to be, because I will be that firework, that lightning bolt of life and energy.
"Boom, boom, boom!  Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon. It's always been inside of you, you, you.  And now it's time to let it through."  So, I was shaped in the womb and born with this... purpose and push inside me that is to propel me forward.  It's up to me to find it and allow it to be made manifest in my life. 

Wait... how does this relate to love?  It is not until I love myself that I can have the courage/confidence to find my spark and push forward in life, esp in the face of obstacles, opposition, and haters.  Anybody can live a life, make some money, and just exist.  But it takes courage to find your purpose and live it out, especially if it is of the artsy or spiritually-directed persuasion. 
So realize that you are a beautiful, amazing, powerful creation... and we, the world, are watching and waiting to see you come forth in your full spectrum and splendor of color.